Be careful what you wish for

I realized the other day, that I did get what I wanted in my new job: I have two good friends there, L & C, who are my peers, who react similarly to issues that arise, who like me and don't have any power or supervision issues with being my pals. But the rest of the deal is so bad, I suddenly realized that I had manifeste the one thing I was aware I was missing in my last job, but I forgot to ask for the other good stuff. A good lesson in manifesting what I want. So, I am trying to focus on askinig for the work I am meant to do, with other people who care about me and about the work. I don't think it is too much to ask. In fact, I think I did find it when I found SFC -- now I have to find a way to translate it to some place I can say yes to.

Joy

I'm trying to identify what it is that makes me truly happy. I find myself thinking about it in the quiet, when the girls are falling asleep. Is it that the work of caring is over? Or is it a sense of accomplishment that I have happy kids who I observe growing and changing every day? hard to identify in precise terms, but I feel some sense that if I can locate the center of it, I can work to hold on to it. It isn't that I don't expect hardship and difficulty to visit again, but I find the focus of my life to be generally good.
Except my work. I am so frustrated with feeling disrespected and unappreciated. I guess the lesson is to appreciate when I have and will in the future have better support from management, but this is so infuriating. I dislike that I can't let it go, but it makes me so angry. I suppose I think I could do it better.

New Beginning

Take two. I wrote a post that got lost. Fortunately, it was short and not very substantial. This one will be even shorter. Test.